I want to share something here, that is really personal and dear to my heart. Last summer (2012), I was asked if I would be interested in going on an all expense paid mission trip to Columbia! Yes, you heard me correctly, I said Columbia.
Now I know what you are thinking, Columbia is like the drug-lord capital of the WORLD, there is violence and kid-napping and the cartels own it all - NO WHERE is safe! Why on earth would you ever consider going to Columbia? Let me tell you...
Back in Mar/Apr 2012, my prayer became to God that I wanted him to USE me. I wanted him to show me what he wanted me to do, how I could use the gifts he has given me, and I wanted to step out and walk in faith and GO to what he had called me too.
Now I won't go into a ton of details... but serving on a mission trip is a hearts cry of mine. However, I had no idea that an opportunity like the one that was presented to me would come so soon! As I said, this had been my prayer, and when this opportunity came, I felt immediately torn - I had all of the natural, human feelings: What about my kids, I mean my daughter wasn't even a year old, I have two small children, a husband, a job, could I just pick up and seriously leave in 6 weeks to go to Columbia? I forgot to mention that earlier, I was asked to go 7 weeks before the trip was suppose to take place. OK, getting back, so could I do this? Then the spiritual feelings came out - I felt prompted by the holy spirit, I felt God speaking in to me, "when you ask me to use you, did you expect it would be easy? Do you not trust that I have great things in store for you? Will you not GO now that I have called you to GO?" These are some pretty intense responses when praying about what you are to do in a certain situation.
I knew the only decision, and the decision was to go! I so excited, it seemed as though God literally gift wrapped and handed this trip to me. In the couple weeks to come, wow, there was a lot I was faced with. Mostly, the negative people that couldn't understand for even a moment why I would be "called" to go to Columbia! I remember telling someone who had many negative things to say, that "I believed whole heartily that this was Gods calling in my life" and I remember the response, "We must hear what we want from God, because her God wouldn't call a mother with two young children, with a husband at home to go to such a dangerous place such as Columbia". I remember responding with, "then who should go?" and she said "other people will go, certainly shouldn't be you".
This sort of thing went on a couple times - I finally decided to stop telling people, because I didn't feel that it was my place to have to explain ALL that God was doing in my life at this point. My decision, was between me and God. All while the negatives were coming at me, I felt complete peace, that the decision I was making, was completely GOD led. I just had this feeling that GOD, was going to do something GREAT with this trip.
Well, shortly after making the decision to go, the trip was canceled, lol. OK, so maybe I wasn't meant to go to Columbia at that time :) But God STILL did something AMAZING with that trip, even tho I never packed a bag.... God called me to something, something BIG, and I had been praying and I was seeking him, and when I heard him calling me loud and clear to leave on this trip, I didn't back down, no, I decided to run full force. I didn't look back, I didn't get scared. I knew that no matter what, this was what I was suppose to do.
Today in church, our service was amazing and this whole experience for me was revisited and I felt God speak to me, "continue to be faithful!" And that is what I will continue to do, I will continue to be faithful - I "SAY" that I believe in GOD, and I "SAY" that I believe in the bible, then I need to live dangerously for GOD. We can all live sewn up, safe little lives... never leaving our comfort zone, but for me, I need to walk where he calls me to walk! Even if that means the streets of Columbia. I do not fear, for I know that I am not alone - the Lord God who created me so that I could do all that he has planned for me to do, will keep me! God is not finished with me yet, greater things are yet to come, so stay tuned here, for I plan on keeping you all informed and taking you with me on the ride.
Is God calling you to live outside your comfort zone? Would you pray for him to show to you what that is, if you don't already know? Will you be BOLD for the one who created you and gave you the gifts you have? If you pray, and ask God to USE you, he most certainly will!!!!
God, I am faithfully and forever yours.
- Megan
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